Helping Hand

grab my hand and reach for the stars
don't get held back by those prison bars
if you have a dream don't just sit there and breath
go after it turn it into a reality
if you forget why you didnt give up
look around you and see those who support you
you are a thousand peoples determination
every second you waste is their discrimination
go after your dream
chase every shadow or trace of reality
forget that you ever lost hope
and go for the goal

step into a whole new world donate to help make it beautiful

step into my mind

Why can't you understand me?

Why can't you see what I do?

Why is it that you act through your mind and not your heart?

Why can't you see I can't do that?

How do I explain how I feel?

How do I tell you my heart?

I see horses and gardens in my mind

But I can't even draw

Why can't you see it hurts me to think?

Why can't you tell your voice sounds like music to me?

How does it feel to marry a vampire?

How does it feel with an alien bro?

How do I tell you these things?

I want to walk on water like its glass

I want to swim in the clouds

We fell into a sink and when it rains someone opened a tab

Why don’t you see thunder as a bowling game oh Mr. Angel u win

Why can’t lightning be a flashlight God uses to clean the sink? Look at the mess we made

Have you ever wondered why fish can’t fly?

Or why dogs like fire hydrants

Or why cats’ can’t really have 9 lives

I talked to a cat and they die 8 times in there moms tummy because it's too crowded

I've talked to a dog did you know red is the only color they see its black and white except when it's red that’s why

I've talked to a fish and he said “they don’t believe in me”

Why is it the smallest things?

Why do we forget to smile?

Why can’t you see why I love kids and why they love me?

Why oh why can’t you see

Please oh please understand me

I want just one friend out of a thousand friends who sees what I see

Someone who understands me

dancing in the clouds

dancing in the clouds
hello small car would you like to fly?
i'll pick you up and you'll drive in the sky
hello small person come to my cloud castle with me
call a few friends and we'll have a cloud party
dancing in the clouds soak all the rain around
around the cloud garden i shall play
so let me be you restless plane

Lurking in the shadows

lurking in the shadows
dancing with the wind
i am that that one girl and a hand i shall lend
you dont know my name
original is my game
search for me high and low
my heart is aglow
im a waterfall sometimes rapid sometimes slow
you love me either way i go
im soft as grass and as hard as rock
welcome to my world forget your clock
lurking in the shadows i'll be ther when you want to talk

obsticles

obsticles are challanges hidden by fears
if i only knew how to how to hide my tears
if only the answers were more clear
then i could run away and wouldnt be here
if in love i didnt believe
then now ild be free
now in this cage
where my love burns with rage
and here i will stay til the end of all days
i have been turned to clay
and with me youll want to play
my broken heart shall decay
and in my grave unheard i shall lay

i believe

I look into your eyes and then I believe I can fly
Once upon a time it was just a dream
And now it's love in first sight
Don’t run away don’t be afraid
This time it's not a lie
People say to leave don’t even try
But I'm not afraid to spread my wings
I believe I can fly away with you
No one can tell us how to feel
We’ll find our way we can still try
We won’t run away we will stand fight
Cause I still believe it is my dream
Cause I still believe I can give it one more try
I can finally be free and spread my wings to fly
Because no matter where you look no matter who you ask
They’ll try to tell you no they’ll stop you still
Where is that once upon a dream
Where is that love we know
What will it take for them to see
Love is not a dream
You just, you just have to be free

Call me weird

“There goes the weird girl” “don’t talk to her she’s the weird girl” “hey guys check it out it's the weird girl”…. Hi I'm the weird girl. I'm the center of attention, I'm the one everyone talks about, I'm the one who believes in ghost and I'm the one that gets caught in the most embarrassing situations. I'm the girl people stare at in class, I'm the girl that people talk about in the dorms, and I’m the girl people laugh at in the halls. To the world I'm the weird girl but for me I'm the special girl.

Today you laugh at me and call me names but tomorrow you’ll want to be the same…I'm that one girl. The girl who laughs at her own mistakes I'm that one girl who dances her way to her room rather then walks, I'm that girl who walks away before the other one talks. I'm that girl who never shares her feelings but always tells the truth. I'm that girl who’s not afraid to cry.

The one day your makeup fades and tears take its place ill be the only one by your side. Your friends will forget your name and it’ll be a whole new game. I know it sounds strange now but when the time comes you’ll wish you were like me. I don’t drink or smoke but I face life with a smile, you’ll force me to stop but I’ll still run the mile.

You don’t know who I am but you’ll hear of me sure enough I'm that one girl that you call weird but I call special. I'm the different one the one that makes your day, the one that makes you laugh and the girl that you know will be around. I live life to the fullest and I couldn’t care less what people think. Hi I'm Bazal and I'm that weird girl down the street and I hate to break your heart but I'm not weird I'm special and I'm the reason your still here.

Quotes

“People you turn your back on are most likely to be there for you in your time of need and those who you call friends will turn their backs because you will be friends with those whom are popular and avoid those who are good for they are not popular”

“If you have the disease of missing someone the best medicine is to remember your best moments with them... and it's said that the best cure is the only cure”

“Wipe my tears with your smile and I will wipe you tears with mine”

“Best friends are like glue they stick together through thick or thin”

“people may come and go, thoughts may come and go but once love comes it never goes so don’t be fooled by those who say they love you but come and go as they please…they don’t love you”

“I once heard a fairytale of lovers and peace but those are just fairytales, in reality we only kill these”

“Tell me a story, sing me a song, write me a poem, but when you leave don’t be long”

“Time flies and I die”

“Trust is the most important thing in life because it's hard to live with someone you don’t trust”

“For generations boys have been boys, boys are still boys today, boys will be boys forever no matter what forever means to you”

“You’re my hope, you’re my light, when I'm lost you’re my guide. If only you knew that you were my other half, you still are, and you always will be. The only way to tell you how much I care is to tell you I love you”

“You’re my teddy bear: you stick with me through the good and bad…thank you”

“Hope is only a thought, a belief is trust. I believe in you”

“People say love is only a fairytale…they’re right we live in one big fairytale. They say there is no happily ever after…they lie. There is a happily ever after a thousand times in life we just know what comes next”

“Music is my life… I love life…I love those who love me and my music. I’d die without my music, I’d die without life, and I’d die without you. YOU MAKE MY DAY!”

“I'm a funny bunny; I jump from place to place, from task to task, from group to group…I'm a funny bunny because I still don’t know who I am”

“A is for angel. B is for beautiful C is for caring D is for dance E is for enchanting F is for forever G is for grateful H is for happiness I is for intelligent J is for joyful K is for Kidish L is for loving M is for marvelous N is for noticeable O is for optimistic P is for perfect Q is for queen R is for royal S is for sweet T is for talented U is for understanding V is for vicious W is for wonderful X is for xtra-ordinary Y is for yummy Z is for zoned… to me this is what you mean to me… for all of this and more I love you”

The Gift of Nature

The last time I remember seeing daylight
was when the sun was upside down
and my smile was turned to a frown
and then the clouds came to play
and they hugged me into the rain
and a smile crossed my frame
because water is pure
it's my personal cure
no one realizes
that when the sun finally seizes
the flowers start to grow
and that life is formed
our wonderful fireflies
that light the night sky
and the night dark blue
gives us beautiful due
for me we are lucky
that we get these wonderful gifts of nature

Bubbles

People believe bubbles to represent their personal space or a cute cartoon character but in reality it's a very suspicious thing. It comes without notice and leaves when it wishes. You have no control over it. No shape no size only air. It holds something in it…YOU!! You don’t let people near you because of it and it keeps you from escaping it ties you down and tortures you. And just when you think it's on your side and is only there to help you it smacks you in the face and kills you. Suffocates you until you feel no one cares, makes you hate yourself , shows you everything in a negative way and then it's over all over no turning back. There's a story of a girl just like that…let me tell you.

13 year old Alice just moved to her new school and is nervous about her first day. Everyone already knows each other from the beginning of the year but she doesn’t know anyone and will be lonely until she finds a way to make new friends. In her old school she usually sat alone, she never talked to anyone and no one talked to her. She wanted that to change but how?

“Alice! Are you dressed? Your getting late for your first day at school!” Catharine screams up to her daughter. It's her first day at work too and she can't possibly late.

“Coming mom! I just can't decide what to wear!” Alice screams. “Ugh how will I ever make friends? There is nothing good to wear and I don’t even know what kinds of clothes they wear here!” she mumbles to herself.

As soon as Alice reaches school she rushes out of the car trying to beat the tardy bell. “Ugh! I'm so sorry! I didn’t see you! It's just it's my first day at school and I was going to be late and I don’t know my classes…” Alice tries to explain but before she could finish the boy she bumped into interrupts her.

“It’s ok. Hey you have your schedule? Maybe I can show you to your class let me see.” Heth replies.

Oh no! What if he thinks I'm stupid? Or what if I smell bad? I can't let him think I'm vulnerable! There has to be another way to find out where my classes are! Why is he looking at me like that? Is there something wrong with my clothes or is there something on my face? Does my hair look bad?

Uh oh looks like the bubble decided to drop by. Alice is know conscious of herself and is trying to flatten her curly brown hair. She apologizes once again and runs inside being careful not to bump into anyone else. Of course she doesn’t know where she’s going and finds herself lost within a few minutes. She finds a bathroom nearby and rushes in as she enters a stall she begins to cry.

Knock knock. “Hello? Is someone in there? You ok in there? Do you need me to get someone?” a girl with a melodious voice asks from the other side of the door. Her words muffled and broken due to the door only comes through as “o? Is there? Ok? Need me someone?” of course that makes Alice feel worse thinking that she is so unwanted that no one even finds it necessary to talk to her in full sentences and begins to sob. The girl begins to feel guilty unsure of what she said wrong and leaves the bathroom to call an adult.

Alice continued to have encounters with the bubble until one day. She had already started to feel lonely and unloved; she was 20 and had no one to talk to. Both her parents passed away in a car accident when she was 16 when she told her parents they didn’t care for her and she wanted to be alone they drove off but never returned. Of course this was her fault and the bubble told her that it was because she let them into it. After that her bubble grew bigger and she needed to be even further away from the people around her. Although she thought it gave her more space inside the truth was that the bubble was getting tighter and taking up more space outside at the same time. She was suffocating.

It was midnight in Hollins University and Alice was up doing her homework. She could hear the other girls outside laughing as they watched movies and talked about the latest gossip. She suddenly started feeling Costa phobic and needed to get away. She ran outside with her bare feet pounding on the wet grass as she begins to feel the world close around her. The trees got up and started chasing her, the grass wraps around her toes trying to pull her into the ground, whispers come closer and closer, she feels the invisible stares and hears people laughing making fun of her, and then… she bursts. Not the bubble, not the people, in fact the world hasn’t changed but she is gone. Whipped from existence as if she was never born. She ran right off a cliff and was found the next morning torn to pieces. The police weren’t even sure if her parts were even a body until they saw the blood and her id. The id that she had made when she was thirteen. “Alice Anderson, 13 year old, female, date of birth: 3/4/67, hair color: light brown, eye color: sea blue.” Nothing else. No identity, just the facts.

So you see, the bubbles aren’t innocent, they’re criminals. They wait till you least expect it and kill you. They suffocate you little by little until you’re completely out of air. They steal you from society until there’s no one left to save you. They make you feel miserable even though there is nothing wrong with you. Each and every society in this world has become too big due to the fact that the bubbles have taken over. They have conquered many lives and succeeded in weakening the societies. Racism, war, discrimination, and all of that is all due to the bubbles. The bubbles create fear and hatred. They destroy you. They are hiding in every corner ready to attack. Be careful not to fall for their trap! And if you see another person who seems to be stuck help them fight the bubble and don’t leave them alone. For more information please visit www.bubbles-take-over-the-world.com

Aliens?

I've always been told about slavery. In history class, at home, everywhere. Ever since I was young I was told about slavery of race, of culture, of religion, but no one ever told me about slavery of another creature. No one told me I would become a slave. And I definitely wasn’t told that the world would become a whole planet of slaves.

March 3, 3011; it's my birthday. My birthday present is a hike in the forest at night simply because I like things like that. I've always loved nature and this is the best present I could get. Little did I know that this could also end up being the last night I could be free, the last night anyone could be free.

“Ok you guys were going to pair up in twos one boy and one girl. Each pair has to follow a different route and meet up at the destination which will be were the fire and logs are already set up. We will explain what were doing next once we get there. Sanya and Mike you two will be pairs and will be going in this route here. Here’s your map and compass you two can get started.” One of the adults in charge of the hike says. Mike and I go off ready for adventure.

“You know it's strange we never met before this, at least not properly and now we have a whole hike ahead of us so that we do get to know each other. I think this was planed I bet…”Mike pulls me into him all of a sudden and I'm caught speechless.

“The cliff- you almost fell” he automatically pulls away leaving me where he was standing. I look where he was looking and noticed a fall that wasn’t there before. Both of us realized at that moment that this was no ordinary hike. Something was amiss and we had to find out what.

Suddenly almost as if on cue we heard a scream from Mike’s sister. Mike pulls out his x3 red nokia and calls Julie to see what's going on.

“Hello Julie? What's going on? Are you ok? We heard you scream what happened?...what? You didn’t scream? Are you sure? Oh ok yea no everything’s fine let me know if you need anything ok? Bye” he hangs up the phone and looks at me. “She didn’t scream but I'm sure someone up there is hurt we should call the councilors” sounding almost frightened he calls the head and lets him know about the scream. No one seemed to hear it except for them two but the man said he will check it out anyway.

Walking in the forest surrounded by trees, I suddenly realized they couldn’t see the sky at all and that there was no moon out which would leave them in complete darkness but there was enough light for them to see clearly. I was just about to point this out to Mike when suddenly from one of the trees the leaves started to shuffle and a small dark form seemed to be coming right at us. I screamed hiding myself in Mike’s shirt. When he pats me letting me know its ok I look up to find a dead bird on the floor. Feeling sorry for the little bird I begin to cry. But then the bird’s head shoots up and blood shot eyes stare right at me and I know this bird is no ordinary bird. Both Mike and I run as far as we can until we are sure we have lost sight of the bird.

“We should warn the others to keep a look out. This place is dangerous they can get hurt. I’ll call the girls and you call the boys” I pant. We call all our friends but find that none of them answer.

“Maybe they reached camp already. We’ll go and see at least there we’ll be safe…I hope” Mike tries reassuring me only to end up doubting himself. On our way to the camp we both receive a call simultaneously. Thinking it's our friends answering our call we answer the phone.

“Be for warned there are much more terrors to come” is all the two of us hear and the phone is then cut from the other line. Knowing we received the same call we rush to our destination with all the more desperateness

We reach camp but no ones there. I set up the fire and the two of us sit on a log hoping our friends are ok and will come soon. We begin to distract ourselves by telling each other what we’ve learned about the other person.

“You’re brave but caring, you worry about others and your very sweet and are careful not to hurt anyone” I tell him.

“And you are sweet, but terrified, you can get very easily upset. You are sensitive and caring for both humans and animals, but you get worried easily and can become very protective.” He says smiling.

We look into each others eyes and he draws near me, closer and closer…suddenly there is an ear piercing laughter that surrounds us. We look up and find all our friends walking towards us. Almost relieved I start to relax but then tense once more when I feel a strange aura in the air. I squeeze Mike’s hand hoping he feels it to but seeing the relief in his eyes tells me he doesn’t. Mike tells our ‘friends’ what we had gone through almost desperate for an explanation that would make us feel stupid.

“Ha-ha you guys are hilarious! We did the scream and agreed to avoid your calls simply so you to could get closer through fear” Alex almost throws out. Something about it seemed forceful almost as if he wasn’t sure he knew what the words meant.

I ask them about the bird and the call but they said that they don’t know anything about it. Something isn’t right they didn’t even ask questions in fact they didn’t even find what I said strange! I look at Mike but he doesn’t seem to be getting the hint.

“Ok so we’ll go back now through the routes from which we came and meet back at the bus” the man in charge says. I almost scream out in protest but it doesn’t seem to bother him. “Ok fine we’ll all go together is that fine?” he says sounding a bit irritated…or at least trying to. As we follow the man I whisper to Mike my suspicions hoping no one would hear but of course I never did learn to talk softly and instead everyone heard every word.

“Very good Sanya! You should be a spy!” the man’s voice gets deeper and darker as he speaks. “Now shut up and come! Your friends are waiting in the cave just ahead” he booms.

He takes us into the cave and we find all our friends tied up and their mouths are taped shut. The female who was disguised as Julie ties the two of us together and throws us on the floor with the rest. She removes the tape from everyone’s mouth saying that we can talk simply because there is no one left to hear our screams. All of our friends start talking at once trying to tell us that there is something more then just simple kidnapping going on.

“Ok hold on so these people are green?! And they aren’t wearing masks they just simply turn into whomever they want? You guys have you lost your minds? How is that possible? They’d have to be aliens for that!” as I say the last sentence I automatically hate myself and wish I could take it back. There is enough proof that they weren’t simply humans I mean how can humans do all of that without a single mess up?

“Very good! Another amazing achievement from the human! You seem to know your stuff! Were superior to you and we have come to destroy you! This whole planet should become our slave! How I enjoy watching your ridiculous believes!” the alien that had disguised herself as Julie now had green scales and long antennas coming out of her head. She had elf ears and seemed to have the perfect body figure. Her voice like sharp bells rang through the cave and shook the place from the core.

As I sat there hopelessly watching the alien prepare for destruction I realized I had my laser in my pocket. I took it out and while making sure she stays distracted I release all my friends. I leave one of my friends still tied telling him to distract her. He begins to flirt and ask questions as the rest of us look for weapons. We find some neat things like freeze rays and laser canons as well as things like machines that could bring people back from the dead and everything. We grab the things we could use to save ourselves and hide under the tables surrounding us. I blast the freeze ray at the female’s feet and she screams a blood curtailing cry. We release our friend and run before the rest of the aliens reach the room. We race to the army headquarters telling them of what we learned. They get all the world armies together and come up with the perfect plan to destroy the aliens. While the military is busy with that we get busy on helping the scientist create things similar to what the aliens had as well as create ways to be able to do things that their body's did. War has begun.

The aliens easily defeated the army ranks even with the nuclear weapons and the weapons that we had stolen from the cave. It seemed that the world was not strong enough even as one unit to save itself. As the countries got destroyed and people were killed one by one; my friends and I began to lose hope. Then I remembered how the female alien was distracted by our normal everyday lives and ordered that the message be sent to act as if nothing was happening. If nothing else it would at least buy us time. As the aliens slowly got distracted my friends and I stole some of their weapons and got the scientist to make similar ones but stronger in every way and made weapons that had the features of every weapon. Feeling our chances of survival rise we began to gain hope and the war was once again started. Although we managed to kill more aliens then before we still were at the disadvantage and it was quite clear that the aliens were getting stronger through the war while the people were getting weaker through disease and war kill. Our weapons were soon taken away and we were left on our stomachs dead and useless.

Soon the whole world woke up once more but not alive- undead. We were forced to make thrones for the superior aliens and were expected to do their bidding. We were given no food for zombies don’t eat and had no breaks for zombies don’t need them. We are in rags that never need to be changed and are punished not by whips but by lasers and then brought back to do the bidding. If we argue we are punished, if we make a mistake we are punished, if the master is bored we are punished, if there is no bidding to be done then we are punished, if we finish our work early we are punished.

The world is a round ball of red clouds and destruction is the only answer. There is no love or care, there is no romance or affair, there is no marriage for there is no one to marry and there is no happy ending. There is no ending, just an eternity of suffering.

Follow Your Dreams

Walking along the dark hall full of closed doors, my mind tells me they won’t open but my heart says they will. I feel a sense of light in my soul guiding me to the right door. Since I was a child I had this longing to dance, I had the talent but now I want to show it to the world. My parents and teachers, my friends and foes all told me to let it go. There was only one boy I remember that told me “Follow your dreams”. Soon the hall lights up and all the doors began to open but one door in particular drew me to it and I knew I was right not to give up. I followed my heart to destiny’s door. I clutch my bag and begin to sweat as I draw nearer to the door. My mind starts to question “What if I don’t get it? What if it all goes to waste?” I begin to feel nervous and start to doubt myself as I walk through the door. A tall man with a slim figure, green eyes, fair skin and a bright smile ushers me to my seat. I sit across from him with only a round red wood table in between. Hours pass as he asks questions and I answer some of them having nothing to do with my job. Soon I relaxed then I suddenly realized I knew this man. The interview was over and it was time to leave. I had gotten the job but I couldn’t get myself up. This was the boy who told me “Follow your dreams”.

What a Quote Can Possibly Mean

A quote has a meaning, weather it be a useful life lesson or simply something to entertain it always has a meaning. Of course no one but the person who said the quote can really know what the quote really means but you can always make an educated guess. “There are…two educations; one should teach you how to make a living and the other how to live.” This quote by J.T. Adams has a meaning like any other quote but what is that meaning? Why does it matter? Is it a fun quote or does it have a lesson?

This quote has a hidden message, one that has a lesson. Like a child is curious of what's behind the forbidden door we should be curious of the meanings behind quotes, songs and dialogues for who knows what we may discover. Let’s analyze this quote. First of all, there is two lessons being mentioned the first one being “…one should teach you how to make a living…” now lets see if it's true: in school a student learns the basics on how to work, how to be organized, what is expected from you, how to make connections, how to spend your earnings, etc. some examples of this would be economics, business, etc. these courses are studied in high school and then narrowed down specific subjects in college, which is why having a high school diploma isn’t enough to go far in life.

So is that it? You go to school, you learn your stuff and your done right? But then what's the second lesson? Is it also in school or is there something else we need to know? The second lesson mentioned in the quote is “…and the other how to live” so wait now your going to tell me step by step what to do? Well that can be one interpretation but a more logical consideration could be that what you see people around you do and the consequences you see for each and every action tells you what's wrong and what's right, or the benefits and set backs of a decision. Take a child for example, a three year old girl walks into the store and watches an older woman put something in her purse without paying. Now bare in mind the child is only three she doesn’t understand the concept of stealing as of yet; at first the child considers it borrowing and thinks it's ok but then that lady gets caught and yelled at and then roughly taken away. What has the child learned? Not that what the lady did is stealing but that borrowing without permission is wrong and if you take something you pay for it or you ask the person your taking from if it's ok.

Another example would be when a teenager sees her parents smoking, she will think its ok because even though she is not three she still considers that her parents can't possibly be wrong so if they’re smoking it's ok to smoke. Now she finds out her dad is sick due to the nicotine in the cigarette and automatically begins to hate smoking and soon gets upset with anyone that smokes. This teaches her that smoking is bad and you shouldn’t even try the first time because that can do enough of damage on its own.

So we have two lessons; one that helps you survive in society and the other that helps you understand the concept of good and bad. Although both being similar reasons for existence, both have their areas for learning. While life decisions are understood in school, right and wrong; good and bad are all learned in social environments and life experiences. If even one of the educations falls short the person’s life could be destroyed.

This quote, being both, a life lesson and a concept of understanding one self, exemplifies both the necessities of graduating college and the need to stay a part of society and notice the small things that haven’t been noticed before. As one of Hillary Duff’s songs quotes “…there will be no flashing neon light …” no one can tell you what the lesson is but they can tell you there is a lesson which is why I believe J.T. Adams wrote this quote: to let us know that a second lesson exists and that we need to be aware of it's presence and look for it because the lesson wont come to you, you have to go to the lesson.

Along the Broken Road

People have gone through this road many of times. People believe it brings peace, hope, joy. But what if that road is broken? What if that road caused you pain and heartache?
I'm traveling down that broken road and I simply wish I could die. Through pain and grief I've suffered, I've loved unconditionally but have never been loved, I have cried my heart out but have never been heard, I've been torn to pieces but have never been fixed. People sing songs on the mended road; I sing to on this broken road, but the song is softer, sadder, and muffled with heartache. How can I stop the bleeding? How can I stop the pain? People say I don’t need love…but what if I do? What if my world revolves around people loving me? What if I need someone to breath? What if my world ends simply because I have no one to love me? I walk along the broken road alone and I welcome anyone who wants to come along. I fall on the crack but pick all the same, I wipe my tears and hide my pain and go on. One day maybe someone will come and fix this broken road but by then I might reach the end with my muscles sore and my broken bones, with the pain and grief and a heart that bleeds. I will be loved one day but till then I must go on hard and strong along the broken road.

Adventures of Alyana

Green grass tickle my toe, colorful flowers come and go, a soft white blanket cover the sky above me as I walk through the sweet scent of spring. Once before I had walked this beauty but then was a different story.

Dark clouds cover the sky, blood seeps through the grass, bodies were everywhere; some with their heads cut off, some missing a leg, some with their eyes rolling on their chest, some with their tongues torn out and others much worse; how did I get here? How did this happen? Didn’t I walk into a cave? That rainbow cave that seemed so inviting now feels like hell. How can something so beautiful be so horrible? I will always remember that what seems good on the outside may not always be the best in the inside.

A red man with wings that are as black as the blackest of nights and neon green hair, sharp teeth pointed into arches made especially for tearing things (like bones), growing tail in the back that grew as the man fed, glowing red eyes that bore through the skin flew right at me as I ducked just in time and it missed. I ran behind a rainbow rock unattractively stained with a wet red- blood.

“Ewe… gross! As if this place isn’t bad enough!” I screeched as I got blood all over my hands. I had to get out of here! I have to find that rainbow cave! I thought to myself. But the question was where would I look? This place is filled with rainbow caves! It is quite clear that what ever these creatures are came out from them so it isn’t a very smart idea. But somewhere there is one rainbow cave that takes me home. Wait a sec. these people dieing don’t look like they’re from here. They must have come from a rainbow cave too! I have to find the way out so that I can block that cave so that no one ever comes here again! Crawling on the bloody grass and getting my new pink tang top and my favorite blue jean shorts all bloody and gross, I made my way through all the bodies, heads, eye balls, etc. trying not to touch any of it. (Although I'm sure I crawled over eye balls a lot…ewe…) I tried to keep myself from shivering so that I wouldn’t get caught or lose balance. I was nearly through the maze when a pair of feet landed in front of me. I looked up to find one of those creatures but he isn’t a man, he is a she! She looked at me strangely but then gave me a hand at first I was hesitant but deciding I have no choice I give her my hand. She helps me up and tells me her name is Arthmoneous.

“Hi my name is Alyana…your not gunna eat me right?” I ask as tears fill my eyes.

“No. Me help Alyana run away. Me like Alyana. Alyana pretty and smart” she replies. She sounds like a six year old boy although she looks like she’s 12 like me. I nodded silently afraid I would laugh if I opened my mouth. Although she talked funny she is really pretty. Unlike the man I saw earlier her eyes are sea green and her teeth don’t have blood on them. She looks weak and skinny and you could see her paling even through the fading red of her skin. I wanted to say something but she interrupts me before I can even open my mouth!

“Alyana is girl I know but Alyana no have one but 100 caves to block. Girl must block cave from inside then go home and block cave from out. Cave no have color here. Cave is grey. Arthmoneous help find cave but Alyana no get bleed. Understand?” she spoke fast and broken but I understood every word. I couldn’t bleed because it would attract attention to us as as well as get her to desire my blood. (Ewe)

We walk through a different valley now, a darker, bloodier version of the one we past. The creatures here are also males but they do not have green hair in fact their hair was on fire! Their mouths are more like bird beaks and their hands more like claws. As soon as they see us they rush towards us as if we were friends and they were going to hug us but their glowing red eyes said other wise. The girl grabs me and pulls me into her and the cold from her skin makes me shiver. I feel the air swirling around us like a tornado. I open my eyes to find that the creatures are running around as if they don’t have a clue where we are. I was just about to ask but as if she could read my mind…

“We invisible. We no be seen. We find grey cave hurry me no strong long. Me die soon” as she says the last bit I can feel tears swelling in my eyes and that’s how I know I’ll never forget her.

We walk past the creepy things and the air moves with us. Now I can see it, the grey cave. But it doesn’t look like it was always grey, it looks like the colors were drained out of it.

“They remove color so people no want go but Alyana must save people more. Here no good, here hell no come back. Me be ok no worry” as she said this I realized I was crying. I wiped my tears and took a step away from her as the air around us comes to a stop. I watch her eyes role back into nothing and fall to the floor.

I know she’s ok because she doesn’t have to live in this horror anymore. I run backward for a while watching her body disappear. I turn around and go towards the nearest turn….why haven’t I noticed this before? I am really close to the exit but I stopped. Why block so many doors and still risk so many people coming in in the process? Besides it would be cool to be able to go anywhere in the world within minutes. So I made my decision. I'm going to go back and block the way to hell instead. So I run back from where I came, my bare feet pounding on the rough gravel. As soon as I reach I notice that my former friend is no longer there. I hold my breath and go forward to block this gate forever. I drag a giant rock to the gate of the cave and locking me inside the cave. I run straight ahead knowing that’s how I would get home. The second I get out I look at the cave knowing what I would see. No longer rainbow, the cave stood unattractive but I knew that I made the inside beautiful and I’ll always go to see the world inside.

“Arthmoneous get back here! Where are you going young lady?” I turn and see a six year old girl jump right at me and as I catch her I realize that she wasn’t just any six year old.

“Me say me gunna be ok! Alyana the best!” she says in a cheery voice I know oh so well. Her green eyes glowed and sparkled and I knew that my adventures would never be mine alone.

Needs

Four is all i need
If i need more then i'll see
but for now four is all i need

Me

He who knows me doesnt exist
He who doesnt surrounds me
And he who needs to know defies me

Fear

dont fright dont fret
for all the memories ive kept
they're nice they're sweet
and my love cant be beat
we'll laugh we'll cry
and maybe learn to fly
but we will never lie
your my friend like a rose
just be yourself no need to pose

Play Time

bats and ball
tracks and cars
coats and gloves
sleds and ropes
brush and make-up
playstation and TV
ipod and headphones
everything is out
everything is being used
its play time in this house
its playtime everywhere
children laughing
children playing
hours go by
but its still play time
now the children yawn
away go the bats and balls
away go the tracks and cars
away go the coats and gloves
away go the sleds and ropes
away go the brush and make-up
away go the ipod and headphones
off go the playstation and TV
now its the bed, pillow and blankets turn

Kids

kids are those who make you laugh their laughter
kids are they who cry through your tears
they make a mess when they laugh and play
you cant help but laugh as you realize you'll miss this
tears roll down your eyes when you see them leave
you laugh at the memories when they bring you their child
you count on them when your old
you call them illiterate and foolish when they're young
you yell and scold them
you hug and tell them you love them
when they ask why you say its cuz you care
kids are believed to be the faces of God
but thats forgotten when they make you mad
why is it that when they finnaly leave we worry
why is it that when they're 5 min late we call
why is it that when they get hurt were the ones to cry
because they are our lives
because no matter what we love them
because they are our fresh and blood
because at the end of the day
they are after all only kids

Poem

laugh uncontrolably
love unconditionaly
enjoy unintentionaly
and smile unknowingly
and then when you can do all that
come to me my friend
and we will share it all without hidding a thing
but remember my friend
no matter what you face
no matter what you see or hear
dont forget to...
laugh uncontrolably
love unconditionaly
enjoy unintentionaly
and smile unknowingly
cuz if you do
and if you try
you will see
the brighter side of life